Thursday, April 15, 2010

We all need a deep breath now and then.

So yesterday was an incredibly difficult day for me. My stress level was through the roof and everything that could have gone wrong seemed to have gone wrong. As my stress level was rising I was trying to remind myself. This is just a moment. In one week this moment will no longer matter so don’t let yourself get to worked up. Don’t ruin your day or be mean/ angry because the consequences of that are not worth just trying to get through this moment.

I am a tremendously anxious person. I worry constantly and always work to keep my head on straight. I have over the last month tried to work on that. I try and take the advice I give to others about taking a deep breathe and trying to take things one step at a time. One of my best friends practices weekly and daily meditations. I know I am sorely lacking in the time that I allow my mind and spirit to decompress from all that I put it through. So I have been making a conscious effort to work on giving my mind, body and spirit a break.

I am trying to take little time outs to try and keep my blood pressure down; reminding me even the most horrible moments will be fleeting and will pass. I am trying to be more active and take power walks or go to the gym to release pent up energy and frustration. I am also listening to podcasts by Gil Fronsdale a practicing Buddhist with a PhD in Buddhism studies. The sound of his voice is soothing enough let alone all the wonderful things he has to say in his podcasts.

Another thing I have spoken to my boyfriend about is something that is very big for me. I am working on being a better listener and controlling my reactions to difficult situations. It sounds relatively simple however, it is far from. I don’t like being visibly weak, vulnerable or goddess forbid wrong. I am wrong often however and need to find a way to wear that gracefully. I am enjoying my new thoughtfulness and realize I spend too much time criticizing others behavior and not enough critiquing my own. I am working to change that in hopes of being a better person, partner, friend and HPS.

Check out the podcast, you may love them as much as me. They are a wonderful way to pass the time and be self reflective.

Blessed Be )O(
~Kanani

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Life is full of oppurtunities...

I have come to realize one critical thing in the last year and that is once you step out of your self imposed limitations there is no end to what you can achieve or work towards. The only exception to this might be running out of time in a day. :) If only I didn't need to sleep. lol

Sitting in my Anatomy and Physiology class last night we were discussing the limbic system and the different regions within the brain. Their functions and how they are affected. Aromatherapy is something I have believed in and utilized for many many years. The clinical basis behind it, however, is now something I have to delve into. I am very excited to begin some personal research on clinical aromatherapy.

I no longer push aside things that fascinate me or ideas that I have. Instead I choose to embrace them and relish delving into topics, ideas or experiences that I used to shy away from or just ignore. My life is more fulfilling then it has ever been. All because I have changed one thing about myself. I will try it. Whatever it is, where ever it is, no matter how uncomfortable it makes me. If it is something I feel experiencing will make me a better, stronger, and happier person I will keep an open mind. I used to be the queen of saying, "I don't like that." People would ask, have you ever tried it? I would say no, I just know I wouldn't like it.

I now LOVE spicy foods, SCI FI movies, being a HPS, school and trying new things as often as I can. I always told myself I don't like school and wouldn't do well in it, so why bother. I am now exceling in school and have no doubt my bachelors will be achieved.  I no longer fear others judgement or teasing. I am very happy being me and ironically find that peope are encouraged by my drive to be myself and find things that make me happy.. There is so much life out there for the taking. There are languages that can be learned, instruments that can be played, books to read. The relization that all I have to do is to stop thinking and start doing was a huge turning point in my life. It has changed me to my very core.

Is there something new you have learned lately?  Have you stepped out of your comfort zone to experience something new and loved it? I would love to hear.

Blessed Be
)O(